I'm soo ashamed :(

I didn't post from months ago...yeah it's not great if i really want wich i WANT soo bad to be skinny as other girls...

I don't know I'm just so lost in my thoughts I want to be strong but alone i can't do this i'm soo weak i don't deserve this life even my mum startet to told me that i shouldn't eat as much and stuff like that i'm very disgusting because my body.

All i need is just to calm down and to start again what i wanted from the begining and keep my head up even if i'm alone or not.At the time when i wasn't posting i started to go to step aerobic it is soo nice i really like it i'm always so tired after an hour of it...I'll keep postin and doing anything good...yeah i found this site full of thinspirations :http://xbeautifulxbonesx.tumblr.com/  it is really good...

Please if anyone is reading my blog and posts write something any comment anything just to be sure that i'm not alone :)

           Love you guys!!!..keep your heads up!